Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
we can't find Gold Elastic anywhere and we need it to finish a costume. does anyone have a gold elastic connection?
update: we found the gold! i went to santa cruz and sewed for three days straight. bellydancer skirt bra vest and belt and dress rehersal went well. my daughter looked strong and beautiful and shiny and i'm so proud of her. i'm beaming a smile so big. can you see it?
Thursday, February 21, 2008
dancing in my kitchen
laughing on the lawn
playing in the rainbows mist
i was bidding and watching an ebay auction and i was feeling so great and confident. i have bought and sold from ebay before and i knew there was the chance that the last five minutes i could still get outbid, so i sat refreshing the page every 5 seconds
just to be sure i was still the high bidder.
then when there were only 35 seconds left
all of a sudden
someone comes bursting out with a higher bid and
i tried to put my new bid in and hit return
and boom i was outbid
and the sale was over
i was so shocked i didn't get that one.
i mean i really really felt like i had that one.
Suzi Blu has a great conversation
going on over at her place
and it has been about vulgarity
and freedom and art
and the myths of lady-like and
socially accepted values and a whole lot more.
i embraced vulgarity and ranted
Visual changes made me sick, all of a sudden
the computer screen seemed to be caving in, i stood up and my entire body glowed red,
i lay on the coach but then the heat and sweat overtook me and i had to find the cold floor and i vomited. thought i'd die it lasted so long, puking emotion. i have to admit i did begin to make deals with the devil
after i'd been throwing up all night monday and
all day tuesday saw the doc again wednesday and
got a shot in my butt to stop the nausea so today i'm back.
I heard today again:
we can choose to be
choose to be bitter and sad and sick
we can choose to be happy and fairly healthy
today i choose to be happy even tho my butt still hurts from the shot.
thanks Suzi i love your art and your attitude.
we love it we need it we want it
rainbows and promises
Thursday, February 14, 2008
this is a picture of my first grandson with my daughters hands which equal love. i can feel the love. but really ok because i know no one comes here to visit and see this i can honestly tell you i cried all day long. i don't really know why. but it's true i did. but then i went over to youtube and i have to tell you the youtube community is so wonderful and full of love. i feel better now.
so if any one is listening, seriously go to youtube, rate the videos and comment on them and you will feel the love. if you don't, come back here and cry with me and we can make art to heal we can we will. ok i'm feeling better now.