dancing in my kitchen
laughing on the lawn
beautiful granddaughters
playing in the rainbows mist
i was bidding and watching an ebay auction and i was feeling so great and confident. i have bought and sold from ebay before and i knew there was the chance that the last five minutes i could still get outbid, so i sat refreshing the page every 5 seconds
just to be sure i was still the high bidder.
then when there were only 35 seconds left
all of a sudden
someone comes bursting out with a higher bid and
i tried to put my new bid in and hit return
and boom i was outbid
and the sale was over
i was so shocked i didn't get that one.
i mean i really really felt like i had that one.
Suzi Blu has a great conversation
going on over at her place
and it has been about vulgarity
and freedom and art
and the myths of lady-like and
socially accepted values and a whole lot more.
i embraced vulgarity and ranted
Visual changes made me sick, all of a sudden
the computer screen seemed to be caving in, i stood up and my entire body glowed red,
i lay on the coach but then the heat and sweat overtook me and i had to find the cold floor and i vomited. thought i'd die it lasted so long, puking emotion. i have to admit i did begin to make deals with the devil
after i'd been throwing up all night monday and
all day tuesday saw the doc again wednesday and
got a shot in my butt to stop the nausea so today i'm back.
I heard today again:
we can choose to be
choose to be bitter and sad and sick
or
we can choose to be happy and fairly healthy
today i choose to be happy even tho my butt still hurts from the shot.
thanks Suzi i love your art and your attitude.
we love it we need it we want it
rainbows and promises
