http://www.youtube.com/user/pangeaday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbaLsHIloFE&feature=PlayList&p=CBF9E24E6CD89E69&index=9

I have been blessed with Grandsons

Tommy playing the Udu.


James eating ice cream and with cousin Shelbe.

Springtime

Springtime is showing it's smile

all the daffodils are blooming

bright yellow

and some with white and yellow

whispering to me

warmer days are on the way.

i'm in the perfect place

at the perfect time

i'm smiling

we can't find gold elastic anywhere

we can't find Gold Elastic anywhere and we need it to finish a costume. does anyone have a gold elastic connection?

update: we found the gold! i went to santa cruz and sewed for three days straight. bellydancer skirt bra vest and belt and dress rehersal went well. my daughter looked strong and beautiful and shiny and i'm so proud of her. i'm beaming a smile so big. can you see it?

Rainbows and Goddesses in Training

dancing in my kitchen

laughing on the lawn

beautiful granddaughters

playing in the rainbows mist

 i was bidding and watching an ebay auction and i was feeling so great and confident.  i have bought and sold from ebay before and i knew there was the chance that the last five minutes i could still get outbid, so i sat refreshing the page every 5 seconds 

just to be sure i was still the high bidder.

then when there were only 35 seconds left 

all of a sudden 

someone comes bursting out with a higher bid and 

i tried to put my new bid in and hit return 

and boom i was outbid 

and the sale was over 

i was so shocked i didn't get that one. 

 i mean i really really felt like i had that one.

 Suzi Blu has a great conversation 

going on over at her place

 and it has been about vulgarity 

and freedom and art 

and the myths of lady-like and 

socially accepted values and a whole lot more.

i embraced vulgarity and ranted

Visual changes made me sick, all of a sudden

 the computer screen seemed to be caving in, i stood up and my entire body glowed red, 

i lay on the coach but then the heat and sweat overtook me and i had to find the cold floor and i vomited. thought i'd die it lasted so long, puking emotion.  i have to admit i did begin to make deals with the devil 

after i'd been throwing up all night monday and 

all day tuesday saw the doc again wednesday and 

got a shot in my butt to stop the nausea so today i'm back. 

I heard today again:

we can choose to be

choose to be bitter and sad and sick

or

we can choose to be happy and fairly healthy

today i choose to be happy even tho my butt still hurts from the shot.

thanks Suzi i love your art and your attitude.

we love it we need it we want it

rainbows and promises

Valentine

this is a picture of my first grandson with my daughters hands which equal love. i can feel the love. but really ok because i know no one comes here to visit and see this i can honestly tell you i cried all day long. i don't really know why. but it's true i did. but then i went over to youtube and i have to tell you the youtube community is so wonderful and full of love. i feel better now.
so if any one is listening, seriously go to youtube, rate the videos and comment on them and you will feel the love. if you don't, come back here and cry with me and we can make art to heal we can we will. ok i'm feeling better now.

Sunshine

it is so important for me to remember to see the glass is half full, and be grateful for my life.
i tell myself to smile.
i have projects going in every room
i feel the confusion
i think i can finish them
before they do me in.